Everything changes one day, this year I had many days. I decided to go Berlin - leave everything back behind. I left my family, my friends, my love - my home. It was a journey into the nothing. Many people told me I should stay, I should try to go another way. But this is my way, it’s not the easiest one - not the beautiful smiling one, but it’s mine. I lost many things this year, many personal things. In the past the people told me always about my big heart and this stuff. Here in Berlin I lost it more I feel like I lost myself in a strange way. But until now I think all this was necessery for me, I just had to loose all this. Now I know my strengths, my deep dark problems and what I want to be. So now I can work on all this, I can do everything for my dream. The dream of my life, the dream of my love. So at the end of this hard always chaotic year I can say:

I had to loose it all, to know what I want.

That’s my tiny little understanding of the world. Sometimes you have to loose everything to go forward.

I’m taking the next step - into this one future I have.

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The Couchsurfing Blog says:
Come an get some!

So now I have to leave this place.
The night is back and like all the other shadows I will go outside - it’s the only time we can move. Shame on me but yeah I like it - it’s cold, it’s lonely it’s far but it’s still me.
Thats everythink i’ll need - for now, but the days will change.

Good Night

Uh uh - I have a new serial on the TV. Fringe nice to watch.
So here is a little preview about it, surely I will write more details on this subject.

Fringe is a science fiction television series co-created by J. J. Abrams, Alex Kurtzman and Roberto Orci. The series premiered on September 9, 2008, on FOX, CTV and A, and a version of the show (edited for time) premiered on the Nine Network in Australia on September 17, 2008.^[1]. It premiered in the United Kingdom on Sunday, October 5, 2008 on Sky1, ^[2] in Sweden on Thursday, October 2 on Kanal 5 and on October 1 2008 on TV3 in Ireland.

Along with Joss Whedon’s Dollhouse, Fringe is part of a new Fox initiative known as "Remote-Free TV". Episodes of Fringe will be longer than standard dramas on current network television. It will air with half the commercials and promo spots, adding about 6 minutes to the shows’ run time.^[3]

The series deals with a research scientist named Walter Bishop (described as "Frankenstein mixed with Albert Einstein" and portrayed by John Noble), his son Peter Bishop (Joshua Jackson), and an FBI agent, Olivia Dunham (Anna Torv) who brings them back together. The show is described as a cross between The X-Files, Altered States, The Twilight Zone and Dark Angel .^[4][5]

On October 1, 2008, Fringe received a full 22 episode season.
At source Wikipedia.org

Next Story out of the life of a real human beeing.
What is harder to have sex with someone you don’t know?
To wake up and don’t know you had sex.

Yeah always the same story:
Guy gets drunk, Girl gets funny, Guy gets more drunk, Girl gets beautiful, Guy is drunk, Girl gets naked, Guy and Girl have Sex, Guy wakes up and screams the shit out of his lights. Yeah it’s always the same - hopefully for me
God damnit I was drunk like hell, at the first 4 hours in this Club i knew this girl is ugly but then my "good" friend bought the devils right hand to drink.
Tequila - after 4 of them she begun to look more beautiful but first after 2 more she was it. So I decided to turn her on.
You have to imagine a guy who could barely walk dancing with a girl.
It was more a flying from one corner of the room to the other - but hell yeah it was fun (as I can remember).
Then there is this 6 hour black hole in my head - nothing to remember.

So next morning I wake up because somethink or someone is working on somethink at me - as I woke up and saw this head over my dick I smiled but then she looked at my. I wish she never done that, her face was … reason enough to get drunk the next evening

But ok we had sex another time her body was ok.

More guys out there with the same experiences? Good please don’t tell me.

Some Songs in your life you should take with you. Maybe you can feel it, you can feel the pain in some songs.
This is the moment you need, even if there is no pain at the singers voice, take it.
It’s yours only for you.

I have mine and you?

Some people really asked for more - incredible.
So here we go - Californication TV the real deal?
So whats this Californication TV blabla? Easy one: We all know Californication is more real life then we would accept.
So here we go, i will start in the past - 2 months ago, i had a very strange time.

I met an italian girl, she was 33 and really she wants only one think - to fuck.
And no she was not ugly (for sure you will not find a picture of her).

So after a One-Night-Stand i forget her, but the next evening at 1 fucking o’clock in the morning she stands right infront of my flat with her package and said the most fucking sentence i ever heard:
“Yeah i don’t want to border you, it’s just sex - i will cook and clean, in 3 weeks i’m gone okay?”
So there i was, my dick says “jipihee” my brain says “wtf?” and i said “yes for sure!”.

After 2 weeks she began to border me so i kicked her out of my flat, unfortunatly i forget she had a key - and more unfortunatly i lost mine.

So i had to be “nice” and blabla…

The end she throw my key in the River, i had again sex with her and to break up my own appartment.
(The Policemen were nice..)

What a great memory.

This is for all the Guys outside who going out to hunt a chick and fail like a little boy.
Hey Guys maybe you should try to use your mouth instead of your amazing bad skills to dance, yeah sorry i’m really not the biggest dancer or the most beautiful guy in the world - but i can talk, and “whohooo” more then one sentence without an “eh” or “doh”.
Come on grap your balls - if you have some - and talk, the girl in front of you will thank you this.
You know what i mean and surely the girl in front of you know’s the same.
She saw your spermspending view all the time when she was dancing, so yeah she know’s you want to have sex. Now to bring you done, she wants the same - exactly the same.
But first of all you have to talk, becouse live is not a pornmovie and yeah 2 sentences are really hard to say.
Ok to your defence i know your sperm is blocking your head but you can do more then this.
Even only for some minutes, but enough for her.

Oh and some Words for all the Guys out there who tell me:
“I’m going to the Clubs becouse i want to Dance” <- Sure and i’m lord Pepperoni from Mars.
“I love to be in the Clubs becouse the Music is so great” <- Yeah much better then your 1 Million illegal Songs on your PC i know
“The drinks are so cheap!” <- Ja … 10 € for a Vodka with Red bull with more Water then Vodka or Red bull is really cheap
“I love to hang out with my friends” <- Ja…and your friends love to watch the dirty dacing girls and to give them what they want … and you?
“It’s fun” <- Jeah .. really funny with many people in one room, bad music, bad drinks and bad air - sure i love it to!
“I need sex” <- /signed

So i was thinking about writing down some real storys about my adventures in Berlin.
Maybe…let me know if you want them! (Comments!)

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