Changes

Everything changes one day, this year I had many days. I decided to go Berlin - leave everything back behind. I left my family, my friends, my love - my home. It was a journey into the nothing. Many people told me I should stay, I should try to go another way. But this is my way, it’s not the easiest one - not the beautiful smiling one, but it’s mine. I lost many things this year, many personal things. In the past the people told me always about my big heart and this stuff. Here in Berlin I lost it more I feel like I lost myself in a strange way. But until now I think all this was necessery for me, I just had to loose all this. Now I know my strengths, my deep dark problems and what I want to be. So now I can work on all this, I can do everything for my dream. The dream of my life, the dream of my love. So at the end of this hard always chaotic year I can say:

I had to loose it all, to know what I want.

That’s my tiny little understanding of the world. Sometimes you have to loose everything to go forward.

I’m taking the next step - into this one future I have.